Monday, March 29, 2010

I Got Me a New Attitude!

Easter for me this year is bittersweet because I so vividly remember where I was this time last year. Passion week last year found me at an all time low and yet God visited me in a way most miraculous.
I have at times set my focus on the circumstances of life letting my own emotions drag me down instead of believing that God was actively at work in my life, even when there was no outward evidence of it. Instead of adjusting the set of my emotional sails accordingly, I allowed myself to slip into despair, like a ship set a drift in a storm. The result was not only disastrous for me but brought others down with me.
I have since learned how destructive it is to let others control my behavior. As a mother and a professing Christian I need to keep a positive mindset. I am not talking about positive thinking for the sake of positive thinking either -but actually walking by faith -not by sight and passing off a tangible life skill to my children in the process!
As much as is possible I am resolved to keep my focus on the many blessings God has bestowed on me! I want to leave my children with the memory of a Philippians 4 mom. A mom who was strong enough to overcome the obstacles in life but who was gentle, gracious and kind. I want to teach my children how to love the roses of life without being mortally wounded by the thorns. .
We all encounter negative situations and negative people. I will however no longer allow myself to be weighed down by the negative mindset of others. Negative attitudes are very contagious and if I am not very careful I become a conduit that passes bad attitudes on to others!
Philippians 4: 4-8 is a Biblical mandate that tells me not only how to change, to be transformed by the renewing of my mind, but is insistent that I must change my mindset. It is my reasonable service, not contingent upon how I feel. I am to rejoice in the midst of my circumstances even when they are unpleasant. The only way I can possibly do this is to view my circumstances through the eyes of faith. We are not rejoicing in the circumstances so much as in the knowledge that Christ Jesus is the blessed controller of all things!
I am choosing this day by an act of my will to focus on what is true. Even if my circumstances look discouraging. I will rejoice in the Lord always. I will rejoice! I will let my gentleness be evident to all. Because the Lord is near. I will behave accordingly. I will not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, I will present my requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus. Whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable, excellent or praiseworthy—I will think about such things.

* Romans 12:1
* Phil. 4
* 1Timothy6:15

Sunday, March 28, 2010

A Visit to Neverland

I had decided to pay a visit to a dear friend of mine yesterday. She lives about an hour away. It was exactly what I needed to raise my spirit and renew my senses. It was as if all of nature was getting dressed in their Easter outfits and throwing on festive bonnets.
Assortments of wildflowers were in bloom along the highway. Golden poppies colored the sides of the hills and the valleys covered in lupines looked like lakes of purple water. Pockets of pink, purple and fuchia were splashed here and there like droplets fallen off the end of a giant paint brush. Even the scraggly old oak trees dressed up in a soft green for the occasion. Wild grasses-that in a few weeks would be dry and brown- moved gently to hushed song of the wind.

As I pulled off the main highway and headed into the hills the scenery began to change. The tips of the trees erupted with bright green as if they couldn't contain their excitement any longer about springtime. The creek gurgled along side the road and frogs croaked boastfully back and forth to each other.

Cattle of all sizes dotted the hillsides and gangly calves scooted back and forth across the road and a rabbit looked at me curiously from under the shadow of a bush. Not one of the creatures seemed in any hurry to get any where and their mood was contagious. By the time I reached my friends mountain home I was already feeling more upbeat and positive.

A felt like for a moment I was in another world. A slower paced world where it seemed if one would sit still for just a minute and listen they would hear the voice of God just as clearly they could hear the bullfrogs along the creek.

To be able to sit with my friend and catch up on life was good medicine. She showed me around her property and I met her menagerie of pets including a very vocal peacock that had claimed ownership of her patio and was as protective as any watchdog.

We had times of quiet and times of talking. We have been friends long enough that words are not necessary. Tears are allowed even expected at times. We don't try to fix each others problems we just offer each other a safe place to-be.

As I packed up to leave it was with some sadness. I would miss my friend. But the work God had been doing was becoming clear to me. It was one of those situations where you aware of something but you aren't quite ready to look it straight in the face. This was one of those times.
Sometimes having a quiet place to listen to your own hear or having a safe place to say things out loud can at times brings clarity to a troubled spirit.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Spiritual Defiance

I read this quote on a friend,s Facebook page recently,
"Prayer is an act of spiritual defiance of what is, in response to what God has promised. The shape of the future will be determined by those who can survey all its possibilities and by faith grasp one as possible. History belongs to the intercessors, those who believe the future into being. " Walter Wink
Operating in the gift of intercessory prayer I found this quote powerful and enlightening and wanted to use it so I went on a bunny trail last night to find the author. The bunny trail led me to a blog that had several videos posted including this one by Sunder Krishnan called Pray Big and Pray Bold.
I wanted to take this statement apart and look at all of the ideas that the author has expressed. I needed to do this for my own sake knowing my prayer life has suffered tremendously this past year. I knew God wanted to open my understanding the minute I read this short paragraph because it was pregnant with spiritual truths God needed to remind me of! I had been stomach punched so often by the enemy over the past two years I am just now getting my equilibrium back.I don't want to feel like a prisioner ever again to defeated mindset.
"Two men look out the same prison bars; one sees mud and the other stars." Frederick Langbridge
"I became acquainted with those martyrs whose behavior in camp, whose suffering and death, bore witness to the fact that the last inner freedom cannot be lost."Viktor E. Frankl
"Prayer is an act of spiritual defiance, " There is a rebelliousness in the human flesh that we are born with. As a kid I was the " I may be sittinging on the outside, but I'm standing on the inside" type of rebel. I was rebellious at heart but not confident in my convictions. Sort of a rebel without a cause until God really got ahold of me.
But Mr. Wink goes on to say that "Prayer is an act of spiritual defiance "in response to what God has promised." How do I know, how do you know what God has promised? In a word the answer to that question is the Bible. "God's word is God's will." There are times God has spoken to me mightily and personally from his word, there are times He has whispered something directly to my spirit but NEVER has he contradicted his word. God's promise are sure. God cannot lie, there is no darkness in Him at all. Scripture tells us Satan is the author of ALL lies, he has always been a liar and will always be a liar. Anything God tell us through His word is...yes and amen! We can go to our grave knowing God will NEVER leave us or forsake us. We can move forward in the promises of God with full confidence that what He started in us He will complete.We cannot allow the enemy to discourage us or cast a shadow on the character of God!
"The shape of the future will be determined by those who can survey the all its possibilities." Proverbs tells us that "where there is no vision, the people perish." God's people and intercessors in particular have to be people of vision. IF we set our focus on the things of earth and not the things of heaven we will at one point or another succumb to a depressed mind set! We loose our vision.
You cannot tailor make the situations in life, but you can tailor make the attitudes to fit those situations before they arise. Zig Ziglar
We cannot make the mistake of thinking of God like a super human. God is God and cannot be locked into a box. Don't make the mistake of believing that God will work within our limited expectations! Ask God to give you renewed vision. Ask Him to open your understanding to see beyond the walls of what you can see with your eyes! "and by FAITH grasp one as possible."
As God gives you vision hold on to it! I cannot tell you the number of promises, personal promises God has given me for the future. None of them line up with the circumstances of the present but I have grasped the vision and it sustains me through the tough stuff of life!
"History belongs to the intercessors, those who believe the future into being." I DO believe prayer makes all the difference. I believe the enemy's sole purpose in discouraging us is to cause us to release our hold on the vision God has given us and to make us despondent enough to quit praying. If he cannot keep us from salvation he wants to make us ineffectual as a role as Spiritually defiant men and women that storm the gates of hell and take back the things the Strongman has stolen from us.
Ask God for vision, BIG VISION. Ask Him to open up your understanding to ALL He has purposed for your life! Ask Him to give you the vision to see beyond the circumstances of life and show you how to see the spiritual amidst the physical, the divine amidst the mundane. Defy what is- and pray beyond what you can see with your human eyes! See the future through God's eyes! History is in the hands of the intercessors!

Thursday, March 25, 2010


I don't neccessarily write this blog for others. It is really a place for me to put my thoughts together and cement certain things in my own mind. Because it is public I know it is read by others.

Trust~confidence; a reliance or resting of the mind on the integrity, veracity, justice, friendship or other sound principle of another person.

While trust in the Lord has been the lesson learned my teachers have been other people. God has brought the most amazing people into my life the last couple of years. People that have taught me to love and to trust.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Feeling Like Job

I'm having a rough night tonight and it's probably not the best time to be putting thoughts down in cyberspace. Truthfully I'm not real sure what my thoughts or feelings are right now. I'm all sort of jumbled up inside.
On top of jumbled up feelings I've had this feeling of tiredness, it is deeper than the flesh, and deeper still than the emotions. No matter what I do I can't seem to shake it off. I think I am battle weary and I just don't seem to have any fight left.
A friend told me I sounded depressed. I'm not depressed. I do have hope. I know what it feels like to loose hope and I never, ever, want to be in that place again! I will admit to this, I desperately need a healing touch from the LORD.
I know when I pray God is faothful to answer and His answers are "Yes" and "Amen."
Since I've been feeling a little like Job lately , I know I can take comfort in his words, "Naked I came from my mother's womb, And naked shall I return there. The LORD gave, and the LORD has taken away; Blessed be the name of the LORD."

Wednesday, March 17, 2010


I heard a saying that I believe was originally from a book by Randy Alcorn. It said in effect (paraphrased by yours truly) that when we look around at the ugliness of life: violence, oppression, hatred, incest, murder, cancer, heartaches of all sorts it is like looking through a small window into hell.
Conversely to experience the beauty of life music and laughter, love, friendships, joy, charity and kindness are like looking through a small window into heaven.
Something to think on. Blessings,

I Am Undone

Then said I, Woe [is] me! for I am undone; because I [am] a man of unclean lips, and I dwell in the midst of a people of unclean lips: for mine eyes have seen the King, the LORD of hosts.
Then flew one of the seraphims unto me, having a live coal in his hand, [which] he had taken with the tongs from off the altar:
And he laid [it] upon my mouth, and said, Lo, this hath touched thy lips; and thine iniquity is taken away, and thy sin purged.
Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here [am] I; send me.
And he said, Go, and tell this people, Hear ye indeed, but understand not; and see ye indeed, but perceive not.

These words from Isaiah's sixth chapter were what I woke up to this morning. It was if Isaiah was speaking to me. I am not sure how these verses are going to play out in my life but I know that when God speaks, He moves.

Last year he spoke to me from 2 Kings "Thus says the LORD: 'Set your house in order... though at he time these words didn't make sense except in the context of the scriptures and Isaiah's admonition to King Hezikiah and yet there was an urgency in them SET YOU HOUSE IN ORDER! I remembered also what a dear friend taught me "When God speaks to you from His word you stay right there in that portion of scripture and listen."

I began to set about the task of setting things in order (and am still about the task sense the Lord has not said to stop) in all areas of life. This has been a huge undertaking for me. The Lord knew what was headed our way and I can see why the urgency was needed. Disaster was avoided in this case as a direct result of my obedience to God speaking from his word to my heart! This is only one of many examples I could give of God going before me and making a way where there seemed to be no way.

God speaks through His living word today if we will listen to the inward prompting of the Holy Spirit. The word of God is like a schematic diagram, *"a drawing intended to explain how something works, a drawing showing the relation between the parts" Should we not be applying it to our lives and relationships in a practical way?

Isaiah goes on to say "Make the heart of this people dull, ( King James says "fat.") And their ears heavy, And shut their eyes; Lest they see with their eyes, And hear with their ears, And understand with their heart, And return and be healed."

I wonder how often my ears to heavy to hear that still small voice. Or my heart has been to dull to understand what God was saying? God speaks and then He moves. Are we listening? Am I?
Yeshua Adonai, prepare my heart for this new work you are doing. Make me clean in your sight and willing to go where you send me. Cause my heart to be sharp to understand and yet soft and pliable in your hands. Make my ears light to hear your softest whisper. Father God, don't let anything take root in my heart that can choke out the work of your Spirit in my life. Make me bold in prayer and wise in speech. Amen.