Friday, January 23, 2009

Life Lessons

As I mentioned in the past post, life around here has been well...difficult. I have also posted a bit about God allowing us, at times to be crushed to produce a fragrance that is pleasing to Him.
Absolutely nothing has changed in my circumstances since I posted last, and yet everything has changed because God has been changing me within these painful circumstances. I am beginning to see the outcome from the process -the aroma from the crushing. I can see new growth as the Lord draws qualities out of me that I never knew were inside of me in the first place! There is a new strength and peace unlike I have ever known in the past!
The Lord has been speaking to me for months now, giving me deep insights that apply to my personal walk with Him. He has been using rhemas to navigate me through these 'situations' that have had the potential to tear my family apart and destroy me in the process. Because of His faithfulness to walk me through this confusing maze instead of just removing these crisis situations as they have arisen I have been able overcome a lot of the fearfulness and self-doubt that normally would have engulfed me.
I have been drawing on scripture and beginning to understand the power of God's word like NEVER before! Verses like Ephesians 3:20 have proved so powerful in keeping on top of the thought bombs the enemy has tried to drop on me.
Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us,
The ongoing theme through all of this has been "seasons" and Galations 6:6-10 was a rhema to me just the other day as I prayed on these things and asked God for affirmation for the more difficult things He has been speaking to my heart.
Let him who is taught the word share in all good things with him who teaches. Do not be deceived, God is not mocked; for whatever a man sows, that he will also reap. For he who sows to his flesh will of the flesh reap corruption, but he who sows to the Spirit will of the Spirit reap everlasting life. And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all, especially to those who are of the household of faith.
As I continue through this season I am looking forward to all God is going to do as he molds me into the woman of God I know he desires me to be!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Are We Having Fun Yet?

Ever been in one of those places in life where NOTHING makes any sense? I'm in one of those places, have been for weeks, like an emotional amusement park ride where centrifugal force presses you you hard against the wall and then the floor slowly drops away beneath you feet? Yeah, as a kid I loved that ride! In real life it's not much fun!
Spiritually the foundation I have built my life on has remained unmoved. And yet moment by moment these days I have to choose to obey. This is a season of faith for me. If I let my emotions have their head, they will destroy me. I am unsure at times if I can take the next step of faith the Lord sets before me other times it is a little easier.
I know so little right now. God keeps giving me small encouragements and I am tucking them away until their season comes to pass; that season seems so far away! For now I have this season to walk through. This season is a season of faith and faith alone.
I have never felt more humanly alone in my life. Everything has changed for me.
I often wonder how people navigate through life without the anchor of a relationship with the living God! I am thankful for the Holy Spirit that has been my constant companion and friend. I am thankful for the urging of His presence causing me to press on to higher things and into the character of Christ!